Journal entry: Day 59
11:28 pm, feeling sad and happy, writing in my room.
First let me talk emotions. At this point I left my friends and family nearly nine weeks ago. I have been through a lot up here, but as reminded by my friend “No one will ever fully understand your stories. They have to be here to fully understand it, understand how we live up here in such a harsh environment” I felt that hit every point. When she talks about the environment she doesn’t only mean the rapidly changing weather conditions, she means the whole environment. Including the community, the people, the social issues that are faced every day. As much as I have shared, discussed this life with my loved ones. The flow of emotions throughout this journey cannot simply be described.
Living in the north has been an adventure. It is fun to think about all the things that I have done up here. The freedom to wake up and spend hours exploring my surroundings. The fact that every direction you turn, you are overwhelmed with the magnificence of the natural world and the amplitude of the atmosphere you are living in. The fact you are virtually living history, that generations of people have created. By surviving and exploring harsh conditions that are constantly threatening their livelihood. Then there is the sway of emotions that come with living in solace with the environment.
Traveling up here may have been one of the best decisions I have ever made. I have faced adversity. Not only because I was constantly battling with my internal willpower to brave the environment. I have faced some of my saddest days. Simply put days where nothing went right, days where I wanted to book a flight. Nights where my eyes saw things that made my heart pound. Dreams where shadows flew straight down.
I have faced uplifting moments. Moments of pure joy. Times where I would smile so big, laugh so hard that my face would hurt. I have enjoyed spiritual journeys and stories. Stories of triumph, of failure, of learning, of thinking and of perceiving the world.
The world is immense. At night when you look up at the sky, and see the stars go shooting by, it is simply a glimpse at the world beyond our own eyes. Nature kindly offers us its share, but not without consequence. Those consequences may be harsh, but it is the people around us that shed light far into the night.
The people of Ulukhaktok, NT have been nothing but supportive to me and my goals. Sure there were days when everyone thought I was crazy. But, it would soon bring smiles and laughter to people around the community. I will miss being here, a place that I have called home. The families that have adopted me and treated me like their own.
Far away, in a land to the south, are people that I can call upon. The ones I love and look forward to leaning on. So even though this journey is complete. Now I am off to live the next adventure, another story, another beat.
By Geneviève Lalonde
A collection of stories and tales. Reminiscing the past and exploring the future.